this isn't an emo post

Asslammualaikum... and morning...

well i will try my best to not turn this post to an emo post...

I think i have a problem deal with my insecurities and to handle poor things that comes from my side.

u know what im trying to say there? doesn't even matter.

atcually.. to explain why would i say something so dramatic.. yesterday i had a very lonnngggg day of being a taxi? i dont know.. but i cannot blame them as i let it happened anyway right. my husband he has class every weekend. so i have to fetch him to his house in town and come back to our house and straightly go to work. the time took from our working place to my husband place is about 1 hour. so this is my routine every week. Because on Saturday i work half day.but yesterday and prior to that my uncle ask me to help him to fetch his wife to the airport. so i was thinking since im going to town after work and i think im quite free.. i said ok. but after that my sisters also want to join the ride to the town.. huuuhhh... so since its one way i said.. ok.. but the thing is they dont have transport to fetch them back to our house. damnn.... its so annoying sometime and quite troublesome.. cannot find their way.. and to add some drama into it.. my husband family especially my mother in law ask me to join them to do a last minute raya shoping.. and the nighmare begin... i wish i can split myself into several pieces... because its so damn ugly.


i so exhausted and feel extremely stress by people around me who i think had been pampered by myself

i need to change myself.