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Assalammualaikum..
I think being a blogger its not really my thing. actually it is. i have so many stories i want to post here as i m afraid one day i might forgot all of them. But i really cannot manage my time very well, and to be frank.. i am lazy type of person. So to find a quite time & sit to write an entry its like mission impossible to me.
There is time i feel like i want to give up on my career because i fell that people in the working place they are really give me a lot of pressure. I think no matter how difficult the work it is but if we got support from people around us, it make the difficult work become easier right. but in my case certain people here like it when I have a problem with my work. it is like their are receiving an award. people around will give a big applaud and cheers ups 😢 or its just me? no of course i know what i fell. and i know what is going on. but of course not all of them. Its just some of them who really have a very cold heart & high ego think im not capable of doing my work. like seriously, they only a staff. and i am an executive which meant im actually their bos right. so how it is to fell if u r in my shoes.
but of course they working experience is much much long compare than mine.most of them had been working for more than 10 years some 15 some 20. even though im their bos but they still a big2 senior to me. i have no problem of admitting that. but because of thinking their are more senior than me making them very hard to accept that i am their bos. like seriously????
the entire time i as fighting with my mind to stay strong and just keep doing my works. i have to do the best and lets action louder than speak right. yea i think that is. i keep pushing myself but i dont feel it fun it is just im fell satisfied.
i feel like im not belong here and i feel like even though no matter want i do to proof to them that i am capable they just choose not to see that and keep barking my mistakes.
but generally im controlling my job quite good now. every year i have a good increment from my bos and my bonus also this year like 3.2 month which i think among the highest. 2 or 3 people only had that amount of bonus. as far as i know most of them even the staff who never fail barking my fault also got 2 month. I think i am no more interested to prove myself to anyone else.it just me. i have to consistently to give my best and keep grounded.
just one day if im lost my memory and i came to read this.. i just want to remember that my post in the company was..i am a project engineer & process engineer of kretam Mill. I m taking care of polishing plant, decanter plant, effluent ponding system & also biogas plant.
I think being a blogger its not really my thing. actually it is. i have so many stories i want to post here as i m afraid one day i might forgot all of them. But i really cannot manage my time very well, and to be frank.. i am lazy type of person. So to find a quite time & sit to write an entry its like mission impossible to me.
There is time i feel like i want to give up on my career because i fell that people in the working place they are really give me a lot of pressure. I think no matter how difficult the work it is but if we got support from people around us, it make the difficult work become easier right. but in my case certain people here like it when I have a problem with my work. it is like their are receiving an award. people around will give a big applaud and cheers ups 😢 or its just me? no of course i know what i fell. and i know what is going on. but of course not all of them. Its just some of them who really have a very cold heart & high ego think im not capable of doing my work. like seriously, they only a staff. and i am an executive which meant im actually their bos right. so how it is to fell if u r in my shoes.
but of course they working experience is much much long compare than mine.most of them had been working for more than 10 years some 15 some 20. even though im their bos but they still a big2 senior to me. i have no problem of admitting that. but because of thinking their are more senior than me making them very hard to accept that i am their bos. like seriously????
the entire time i as fighting with my mind to stay strong and just keep doing my works. i have to do the best and lets action louder than speak right. yea i think that is. i keep pushing myself but i dont feel it fun it is just im fell satisfied.
i feel like im not belong here and i feel like even though no matter want i do to proof to them that i am capable they just choose not to see that and keep barking my mistakes.
but generally im controlling my job quite good now. every year i have a good increment from my bos and my bonus also this year like 3.2 month which i think among the highest. 2 or 3 people only had that amount of bonus. as far as i know most of them even the staff who never fail barking my fault also got 2 month. I think i am no more interested to prove myself to anyone else.it just me. i have to consistently to give my best and keep grounded.
just one day if im lost my memory and i came to read this.. i just want to remember that my post in the company was..i am a project engineer & process engineer of kretam Mill. I m taking care of polishing plant, decanter plant, effluent ponding system & also biogas plant.
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